hey, it works! all week i've been logging on to try to blog and the thingy would just spin and spin and would never load this page. i think really it was God telling me to keep my nose to the grindstone and get my work done :) either that, or He knew I was crabby and was preventing me from spewing all over you.

at any rate, it's friday and i'm coming off a week full of molding. not the kind you find on the back of stuff in the fridge, but the kind that happens when you are CHANGING and being molded into something hopefully better. sigh. not easy, but i can feel it.

you see, it's been a crazy summer with the whole "gonna build a house" journey not exactly following the path i had set in my head. lots of twists and turns and stops and starts and hopes and disappointments...and we have not even put a shovel in the ground yet.

long story short, i have GIVEN IT UP. it's not in my control. i put God in charge of this move wayyy back in february, and told him to open doors and close them. i have to just keep faith that He's doing what's right for my family--even if He's taking the long route. i'm sure years from now i'll look back and say "NOW i know why such and such happened..."

God already knows the ending of this saga, and i guess i have nothing to do but wait for the end of the story. i bet it will be a good one. God's stories usually are.