i have always been a writer, though i've never considered myself a REAL writer. i write commercials and ad campaigns and radio spots and collateral, i name companies, i think of taglines, i also do weird things like make up funny menus for restaurants or research things like the average bull sperm count. in my world, proper grammar is usually optional as long as it sounds snappy. heck, i don't even like to capitalize. so, real writing? not so much.

when people ask what i do or where i work, i am not even sure what to say. if i tell them i am a writer, they get all excited and ask me about my books. then when i further explain that i'm a COPYWRITER, they look kind of confused and a little deflated. they think maybe i write about copy machines or maybe i cheat off of other people's papers. i don't know. but unless you are in advertising, you probably don't know what a copywriter is...the secret reason all copywriters want to be creative directors. when i became one many years ago, i LOVED that title. but deep down, i was still a copywriter.

on the other hand, if i tell them i am in marketing and advertising, they inevitably want me to design them a nice brochure. i can't. no, really. ask bobbi. i can't. i have lots of ideas but no design skills what.so.ever. so when i tell them i'm not a designer, they look kind of confused and a little deflated. i usually end up telling them i'm actually a writer, and we start the whole circle again.

big j recently told his friend's mom that i work at wells fargo. i am wondering if he did that because even he cannot explain what i do, or if he REALLY does think i work there?

anyway. i am eventually going to get to the point here. recently, i have had these flashes of inspiration (i use that term loosely) for REAL BOOKS. not sure why. i have two ideas and have outlined them both on paper. i am not sure how serious i am. but i am willing to listen and play along if God is trying to tell me something.

the most exciting part about thinking i maybe, possibly would write an actual book someday is that i would have a title that requires no explanation! i would be...a writer. period. a real writer. well, i guess you don't get to be a real writer unless someone reads your stuff. i was telling little j about one of my book ideas last night and he kind of glazed over.

good thing i have this job to fall back on, whatever it is. :)